By middle school I was missing an averge of 50 days a year from one illness or another. Stomach Bugs, Strep Throat, Bronchitis after Bronchitis, Sinus Infections, Ear Infections, Skin Infections you name it I had it.
Each morning I would cough and cough and cough up mouthfuls to clear my lungs of the thick sticky mucus. I remember once going into a coughing spasm and couldn't stop.I would cough and cough and cough but could not get any air in. I had gym first period that year and I remember the whole locker room started to spin out of control. I didn't know what to do. I didn't ever think I would stop. Finally, I cleared my lungs enough to start gulping in air. This happened almost every single morning before I would catch the bus for school but never had I had an attack this bad "in school".
There was also the time in 8th grade where our chorus class went to a local amusment park to sing. Right in the middle of the preformance I started to cough.The more I held it back the worse it got. Keep in mind I am supposed to be dancing while singing. I mouthed the words and held my breath as long as I could. Finally it just exploded and I went into a full blown coughing fit. I literally coughed the entire song. It was so embarressing.This would have been a great time to know teens like myself.
By then I was on so many steroids to help my failing lungs, I had a moon face and had started to gain weight. I was hooked up to a nebulizer 4 times a day, puffed on a steroidal inhaler 4 times a day, took pills, nasal sprays, and antibiotics just to keep me going. I had dark circles around my eyes and could never get enough sleep.One doctor said I was depressed and that that was my whole problem. I wish I could go back and smack him.
I started seeing a pulmonologist who again thought I had Cystic Fibrosis. I had my first bronchoscopy where the doctor gives you medicine to make you sleepy and then uses a long thin hose to go into your lungs and look around and take samples if needed. The doctor was not a trained in pediatrics but found staph in my lungs and pseudomonas. I was put on antibiotics to use as a preventive. Every few months I would have them switched around from one med to another trying to kill the bacteria.
I remember when Cipro first hit the market. It actually helped during acute infections for awhile. The doctors were worried what the affect on kids would be but we thought the benefit out weighed the risk.
I think back to these years and am so angry that the doctors did not treat my infections more aggressively. I know I should have been hospitalized on several occasions for IV antibiotics. But the doctor didn't even know how to read a sputum culture. I wonder what would have happened if I would have gone to a Children's hospital. They may have picked up on the SDS.
After having no luck the family doctor had me see another allergist. They did skin testing and I had a major reaction. It turns out now that it most likely was from the iodine they used to clean my back not the test itself.
Anyhow, I was put on allergy shots 3 times a week. This went on for about a year. When I would get sick I would come into the doctors office and they would give me nebulizer treatments and oxygen and another script for an antibiotic.
In High School everything escalated.
There were times I felt liuke I was drowning in mucus and slept in a recliner because I felt like I was drowning in my own body fluids.
I got virus after virus, cold after cold, flu after flu. I wheezed and rattled everytime I breathed and my classmates and teachers could all hear me.
My parents, teachers, and doctors were all mad at me because I wouldn't stay well. I had a special IEP set up,this is a special program that outlines things special needs students have to have done, so that every afternoon in the clinic I would have Chest PT. This is where someone pounds on your chest, back, and sides to clear your lungs of the infected mucus. I would lay tilted downward on a bunch of blankets and pillows and the school nurse would beat the crud right out of my lungs.
Most people might be asking why I was having all these lung problems. With the bone marrow problem I have, I was getting infected with all these infections. Well, one of these infections caused the initial lung damage. It is called bronchiectasis. The airways loose their elasticity and the mucus pools in pockets that form. The mucus then can't be coughed out and so infection than spreads. With each infection more and more damage is done. The damage and inflammation from the repeated infections causes the lungs to produce more and more mucus. So its like a never ending cycle of infection, inflammation, and mucus that pools that leads to more infections.
The idea of Chest PT is that if you pound out the infected mucus it leaves less infection in the lungs. Unfortunately, once the cycle starts it is almost impossible to stop. You can sometimes slow it down, but eventually it catches up to you.That is what has happened to me.
Well, I'll skip up to 5 years ago.
I was refered to UNC Chapel Hill's pulmonary Department for evaluation.
Knowone knew what to do with me. The took the CF diagnosis away again.But they couldn't understand why I was having so many infections.
In November of 1999 I became very ill and developed a resistant staph infection in my lungs that went into full blown pneumonia. It was one of only 2 times that I was literally scard for my life. I was coughing up blood and running high fevers. The ER doctors desided that it must just be a virus and sent me home. The next day I returned to the ER and was admitted almost in respiratory failure.
One of the CF doctors who I had seen refused to believe that I had pancraetic insuffiency. HE ordered a 72hr fecal fat test. Well, the problem with this is that :
1. I was throwing up and not eating
2. They only did it for 48hrs
The doctor then refused to write for my enzymes. I was refereed to the GI Dept at UNC. I met with a great GI doctor that basically shook his head at the pulmonary department's behavior and wrote for a new type of enzyme.
The Pulmonary Dept was furious that the GI guy agreed with me and so they told me I had to see another doctor. My thought was that they would continue to send me to GI Docs until they found one that agreed with them. I wasn't about to play that game. They weren't the ones who would have to deal with the diarrhea and cramps if they didn't take their enzymes.
I evenually got a pretty good relationship with my fellow that took care of my pulmonary needs. She was smart enough to bypass the red tape and attendings when I was sick and needed to be admitted for IV antibiotics.
After another very serious bout of pneumonia she told me that I needed to get n appt with the lung transplant team ASAP. She feared that one day they would not be able to pull me out of another crisis so lung transplantation was the only answer.
When she left to go to a private practice out of state she wrote direct orders as to how to treat my case. Unfortunately, my next doctor did not follow the orders and would not send me for the Eval.
The doctors were so busy trying to prove to themselves that I wasn't having symptoms of Cystic Fibrosis they didn't look at why I was having CF Symptoms. If they had they may have figured out the SDS.
I am now listed for a double lung transplant at the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville,Florida. I met a wonderful doctor there who took on my case when most would not.He is the one who finally diagnosed the Shwachman- Diamond Syndrome.
I knew that I was sick.I had spent a portion of almost every month of that year in the hospital and was having trouble completing even the simple task of taking a shower or brushing my hair.
When the doctor explained the results of the tests, it all hit home for me. They told me,without a double lung transplant, I will die. Not in 10 years not even in 5 but I have maybe 2 years left on the ones I have now. If I should get a serioud pneumonia I could end up ona ventilator and never come off again. I was just 25 years old. I am not ready to die.
The doctors have started me on something called IVIG to try and boost my immune system. The medication is in thsi HUGE Glass bottle and take 5 to 6 hours to go in. Its not that big a deal except you get a horrible headache and it really makes my bones hurt.
I have goals. I want to leave my house again without oxygen.I want people to see my face, not my oxygen tubing wrapped around it. I want to run for the first time in my life. I want to wake up each morning and not cough and choke. I want to go one day that I don't cough so hard I throw up. I want to go back to school and become a Physician's Assistant and treat young people with chronic illnesses and show them the empathy that I wish the doctors I had as a child showed me. I want to go swimming. I want to yell as a rollar coaster comes screaming down a steap hill.